Have you ever stopped to read your horoscope? I tend to stay away from things like vague optimistic promises for riches and personal growth. I know deep down that change comes from putting your nose down and working your butt off long hard hours and never giving up. I know that.
But in my latest Marie Forleo weekly motivational email I clicked on a link through to a yearly woo-woo horoscope of sorts and quickly felt the need to scroll down to Leo. Danged if it wasn’t exciting. It was talking about big opportunities and possible financial wins this year. It talked about change and new cities and all sorts of fun inspiring things. For like 10 seconds I allowed myself to be filled with all these crazy possible ideas.
But change comes from hard work. Nothing is handed to you. It’s determination and clear vision and big dreams. I reminded myself that and got back to editing photos and processing client requests.
And then as I was scheduling a share for the facebook page, I saw an old recipe pop up on Pinterest. It was a soft homemade honey oat bread that I had kneaded and baked. It took time and I was not proficient at bread baking yet. There is a delicate nature to them that requires a learned patience and knowledge of the dough. It’s learning when the dough is ready. Something only getting your hands dirty can teach you. It was a good recipe. It was perfect. I felt a call from it and clicked through to admire that recipe but it was the words on the page that got me.
Words where I confessed I was wanting to change some things and how I was going to do that. That I would mountain bike more and create more meat recipes. This post was before the birth of Girl Carnivore. This was before my first 12-hour endurance race. It was the foundation of those big crazy wild dream. The horoscope for myself I was shaping in my own stars. The start of the work I knew I needed to do.
I may not believe in looking at a piece of paper and trusting in the alignment of the stars to get me where I need to go, but somewhere out there, there are bigger plans that are coming together, and part of me is starting to realize that I just need to have a little faith that it will all work out in the end. Hard work still required.